The Lovels of Arden by M. E. Braddon

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Mrs. Lovel clasped her hands in rapture as Clarissa opened the morocco case
and showed her this jewel.

"For me!" she cried. "I never had anything half as beautiful in my life.
And your 'air, too!" She said "'air" in her excitement. "How good of you to
give it to me! I don't know how to thank you."

And the poor little woman made a rapid mental review of her wardrobe,
wondering if she had any gown good enough to wear with that splendid jewel.
Her purple silk--the one silk dress she possessed--was a little shiny
and shabby by daylight, but looked very well by candle-light still, she
thought. She was really delighted with the locket. In all her life she had
had so few presents; and this one gift was worth three times the sum of
them. But Clarissa spoke of it in the lightest, most careless way.

"I wanted to bring you some little souvenir," she said, "and I thought
you might like this. And now I must say good-bye, Bessie. I may call you
Bessie, mayn't I? And remember, you must call me Clarissa. I am sorry I
am obliged to hurry away like this; but I expect Mr. Granger back rather
early, and I want to be at home when he returns. Good-bye, dear!"

She kissed her brother's wife, who clung to her affectionately, touched by
her kindness; kissed the two little nephews also, one of whom caught hold
of her dress and said,--

"You gave me that money for toys the other day, didn't you, aunt Clarissa?"

"Yes, darling."

"But I didn't have it to spend, though. Pa said he'd lay it out for me;
and he brought me home a cart from the Boulevard; but it didn't cost two
napoleons. It was a trumpery cart, that went smash the first time Arthur
and I stood in it."

"You shouldn't stand in a toy-cart, dear. I'll bring you some toys the next
time I come to see mamma."

They were out on the landing by this time. Clarissa disengaged herself from
the little fellow, and went quickly down the darksome staircase.

"Will that be soon?" the boy called over the banisters.

"I do hope I shall be able to keep it," said Bessie Lovel presently, as she
stood in the window gloating over her locket; whereby it will be seen
that Austin's wife did not feel so secure as she might have done in the
possession of her treasure.

* * * * *

CHAPTER XXXVI.

"AND THROUGH THY LIFE HAVE I NOT WRIT MY NAME?"

Mid-Winter had come, and the pleasures and splendours of Paris were at
their apogee. The city was at its gayest--that beautiful city, which we
can never see again as we have seen it; which we lament, as some fair and
radiant creature that has come to an untimely death. Paris the beautiful,
Paris the beloved, imperial Paris, with her air of classic splendour, like
the mistress of a Caesar, was in these days overshadowed by no threatening
thundercloud, forerunner of the tempest and earthquake to come. The winter
season had begun; and all those wanderers who had been basking through
the autumn under the blue skies that roof the Pyrenees, or dawdling away
existence in German gambling-saloons, or climbing Alpine peaks, or paddling
down the Danube, flocked back to the central city of civilization in time
to assist at Patti's reappearance in the Rue Lepelletier, or to applaud a
new play of Sardou's at the Gymnase.

Amongst this flock of returning pilgrims came George Fairfax, very much the
worse for two or three months spent in restless meanderings between Baden
and Hombourg, with the consciousness of a large income at his disposal, and
a certain reckless indifference as to which way his life drifted, that had
grown upon him of late years.

He met Mr. and Mrs. Granger within twenty-four hours of his arrival in
Paris, at a ball at the British embassy--the inaugural fete of the season,
as it were, to which the master of Arden Court, by right of his wealth and
weight in the North Riding, had been bidden. The ambassadorial card had
ignored Miss Granger, much to the damsel's dissatisfaction.

Clarissa came upon Mr. Fairfax unawares in the glazed colonnade upon which
the ball-room opened, where he was standing alone, staring moodily at a
tall arum lily shooting up from a bed of ferns, when she approached on
her partner's arm, taking the regulation promenade after a waltz. The
well-remembered profile, which had grown sharper and sterner since she had
seen it for the first time, struck her with a sudden thrill, half pleasure,
half terror. Yes; she was pleased to see him; she, the wife of Daniel
Granger, felt her heart beating faster, felt a sense of joy strangely
mingled with fear. In all the occupations of her life, even amidst the
all-absorbing delight of her child's society, she had not been able quite
to forget this man. The one voice that had touched her heart, the one face
that had haunted her girlish dream, came back to her again and again in
spite of herself. In the dead of the night she had started up from her
pillow with the sound of George Fairfax's familiar tones in her ears; in
too many a dream she had acted over again the meeting in the orchard, and
heard his voice upbraiding her, and had seen his face dark and angry in
the dim light. She had done her duty to Daniel Granger; but she had not
forgotten the man she had loved, and who had loved her after his fashion;
and often in her prayers she had entreated that she might never see him
again.

Her prayers had not been granted--perhaps they did not come so entirely
from the heart, as prayers should, that would fain bring a blessing. He was
here; here to remind her how much she had loved him in the days gone by--to
bewilder her brain with conflicting thoughts. He turned suddenly from that
gloomy contemplation of the arum lily, and met her face to face.

That evening-dress of ours, which has been so liberally abused for its
ugliness, is not without a certain charm when worn by a handsome man.
A tall man looks taller in the perfect black. The broad expanse of
shirt-front, with its delicate embroidery, not obtrusively splendid, but
minutely elaborate rather, involving the largest expenditure of needlework
to produce the smallest and vaguest effect--a suspicion of richness, as it
were, nothing more; the snowy cambric contrasts with the bronzed visage
of the soldier, or blends harmoniously with the fair complexion of the
fopling, who has never exposed his countenance to the rough winds of
heaven; the expanse of linen proclaims the breadth of chest, and gives a
factitious slimness to the waist. Such a costume, relieved perhaps by
the flash of some single jewel, not large, but priceless, is scarcely
unbecoming, and possibly more aesthetic in its simplicity than the
gem-besprinkled brocades and velvets of a Buckingham, in the days when men
wore jewelled cloaks on their shoulders, and point d'Alencon flounces round
their knees.

George Fairfax, in this evening dress, looked supremely handsome. It is a
poor thing, of course, in man or woman, this beauty; but it has its charm
nevertheless, and in the being who is loved for other and far higher
qualities, the charm is tenfold. Few women perhaps have ever fallen in love
with a man on account of his good looks; they leave such weak worship for
the stronger sex; but having loved him for some other indefinable reason,
are not indifferent to the attraction of splendid eyes or a faultless
profile.

Clarissa trembled a little as she held out her hand to be clasped in George
Fairfax's strong fingers, the quiet pressure whereof seemed to say, "You
_know_ that you and I are something more to each other than the world
supposes."

She could not meet him without betraying, by some faint sign, that there
was neither forgetfulness nor indifference in her mind as to the things
that concerned him.

Her late partner--a youthful secretary of legation, with straw-coloured
hair and an incipient moustache--murmured something civil, and slid away,
leaving those two alone beside the arum lily, or as much alone as they
could be in a place, where the guests were circulating freely, and
about half-a-dozen flirtations ripening amidst the shining foliage of
orange-trees and camellias.

"I thought I should meet you here to-night," he said. "I came here in the
hope of meeting you."

She was not an experienced woman of the world, skilled in the art of
warding off such a speech as this. She had never flirted in her life, and
sorely felt the want of that facility which comes from long practice.

"Have you seen my husband?" she asked, awkwardly enough, in her distress.

"I did not come to see Mr. Granger. It was the hope of seeing you that
brought me here. I am as great a fool as I was at Hale Castle, you see,
Clarissa. There are some follies of which a man cannot cure himself."

"Mr. Fairfax!"

She looked up at him gravely, reproachfully, with as much anger as she
could bring herself to feel against him; but as their eyes met, something
in his--a look that told too plainly of passion and daring--made her
eyelids fall, and she stood before him trembling like a frightened child.
And this moment was perhaps the turning-point in Clarissa's life--the
moment in which she took the first step on the wrong road that was to lead
her so far away from the sacred paths of innocence and peace.

George Fairfax drew her hand through his arm--she had neither strength nor
resolution to oppose him--and led her away to the quietest corner of the
colonnade--a recess sheltered by orange-trees, and provided with a rustic
bench.

There is no need to record every word that was spoken there; it was the old
story of a man's selfish guilty love, and a woman's sinful weakness. He
spoke, and Clarissa heard him, not willingly, but with faint efforts of
resistance that ended in nothing. She heard him. Never again could she meet
Daniel Granger's honest gaze as she had done--never, it seemed to her,
could she lose the sense of her sin.

He told her how she had ruined his life. That was his chief reproach, and a
reproach that a woman can rarely hear unmoved. He painted in the briefest
words the picture of what he might have been, and what he was. If his life
were wrecked utterly--and from his own account of himself it must needs be
so,--the wreck was her fault. He had been ready to sacrifice everything for
her. She had basely cheated him. His upbraiding stung her too keenly; she
could keep her secret no longer.

"I had promised Laura Armstrong," she said--"I had promised her that no
power on earth should tempt me to marry you--if you should ask me."

"You had promised!" he cried contemptuously. "Promised that shallow
trickster! I might have known she had a hand in my misery. And you thought
a promise to her more sacred than good faith to me? That was hard,
Clarissa."

"It was hard," she answered, in a heart-broken voice.

"My God!" he cried, looking at her with those passionate eyes, "and yet
you loved me all the time?"

"With all my heart," she faltered, and then hid her face in her hands.

It seemed as if the confession had been wrung from her somehow. In the next
moment she hated herself for having said the words, and calming herself
with a great effort, said to him quietly.

"And now that you know how weak I was, when I seemed indifferent to you,
have pity upon me, Mr. Fairfax."

"Pity!" he exclaimed. "It is not a question of pity; it is a question of
two lives that have been blighted through your foolish submission to that
plotting woman. But there must be some recompense to be found in the future
for all the tortures of the past. I have broken every tie for your sake,
Clarissa; you must make some sacrifice for me."

Clarissa looked at him wonderingly. Was he so mad as to suppose that she
was of the stuff that makes runaway wives?

"Your father tempted my mother, Mr. Fairfax," she said, "but I thank Heaven
she escaped him. The role of seducer seems hereditary in your family.
You could not make me break my word when I was free to marry you; do you
believe that you can make me false to my husband?"

"Yes, Clarissa. I swore as much that night in the orchard--swore that I
would win you, in spite of the world."

"And my son," she said, with the tone she might have used if he had been
one-and-twenty, "is he to blush for his mother by and by?"

"I have never found that sons have a faculty for blushing on account of
that kind of thing," Mr. Fairfax answered lightly.--"Egad, there'd be a
great deal of blushing going on at some of the crack clubs if they had!" he
said to himself afterwards.

Clarissa rose from the seat amongst the orange-trees, and George Fairfax
did not attempt to detain her.

He offered her his arm to conduct her back to the ball-room; they had been
quite long enough away. He did not want to attract attention; and he had
said as much as he cared to say.

He felt very sure of his ground now. She loved him--that was the
all-important point. His wounded self-esteem was solaced by this knowledge.
His old sense of power came back to him. He had felt himself all at sea, as
it were, when he believed it possible that any woman he cared to win could
be indifferent to him.

From the other side of the ball-room Mr. Granger saw his wife re-enter
arm-in-arm with George Fairfax. The sight gave him a little shock. He had
hoped that young man was far enough away, ruining himself in a fashionable
manner somehow; and here he was in attendance upon Clarissa. He remembered
how his daughter had said that George Fairfax was sure to meet them in
Paris, and his own anger at the suggestion. He would be obliged to be civil
to the young man, of course. There was no reason indeed that he should be
otherwise than civil--only that lurking terror in his mind, that this was
the man his wife had loved. _Had_ loved? is there any past tense to that
verb?

Mrs. Granger dropped Mr. Fairfax's arm directly they came to a vacant seat.

"I am rather tired," she said, in her coldest voice. "I think I'll rest a
little, if you please. I needn't detain you. I daresay you are engaged for
the next dance."

"No. I seldom dance."

He stood by her side. One rapid glance across the room had shown him Daniel
Granger making his way towards them, looking unspeakably ponderous and
British amidst that butterfly crowd. He did not mean to leave her just
yet, in spite of her proprietor's approach. She belonged to him, he told
himself, by right of that confession just now in the conservatory. It was
only a question when he should take her to himself. He felt like some bold
rover of the seas, who has just captured a gallant craft, and carries her
proudly over the ocean chained to his gloomy hull.

She was his, he told himself; but before he could carry her away from her
present surroundings he must play the base part which he had once thought
he never could play. He must be civil to Daniel Granger, mask his
batteries, win his footing in the household, so that he might have easy
access to the woman he loved, until one day the thunderbolt would descend,
and an honest man be left desolate, "with his household gods shattered." It
was just one of those sins that will not bear contemplation. George Fairfax
was fain to shut his eyes upon the horror and vileness of it, and only to
say to himself doggedly, "I have sworn to win her."

Mr. Granger greeted him civilly enough presently, and with the stereotyped
cordiality which may mean anything or nothing. Was Mr. Fairfax going to
remain long in Paris? Yes, he meant to winter there, if nothing better
turned up.

"After all, you see," he said, "there is no place like Paris. One gets
tired of it, of course, in time; but I find that in other places one is
always tired."

"A very pleasant ball," remarked Mr. Granger, with the air of saying
something original. "You have been dancing, I suppose?"

"No," replied Mr. Fairfax, smiling; "I have come into my property. I don't
dance. 'I range myself,' as our friends here say."

He thought, as he spoke, of sundry breakneck gallops and mahlstrom waltzes
danced in gardens and saloons, the very existence whereof was ignored by or
unknown to respectability; and then thought, "If I were safely planted on
the other side of the world with _her_ for my wife, it would cost me no
more to cut all that kind of thing than it would to throw away a handful of
withered flowers."

* * * * *

CHAPTER XXXVII.

STOLEN HOURS.

Miss Granger's portrait was finished; and the baby picture--a chubby
blue-eyed cherub, at play on a bank of primroses, with a yellowhammer
perched on a blossoming blackthorn above his head, and just a glimpse of
blue April sky beyond; a dainty little study of colour in which the painter
had surpassed himself--was making rapid progress, to the young mother's
intense delight. Very soon Mr. Austin would have no longer the privilege
of coming every other day to the Rue da Morny. Daniel Granger had declined
sitting for his portrait.

"I did it once," he said. "The Bradford people insisted upon making me a
present of my own likeness, life-size, with my brown cob, Peter Pindar,
standing beside me. I was obliged to hang the picture in the hall at
Arden--those good fellows would have been wounded if I hadn't given it a
prominent position; but that great shining brown cob plays the mischief
with my finest Velasquez, a portrait of Don Carlos Baltazar, in white satin
slashed with crimson. No; I like your easy, dashing style very much, Mr.
Austin; but one portrait in a lifetime is quite enough for me."

As the Granger family became more acclimatised, as it were, Clarissa found
herself with more time at her disposal. Sophia had attached herself to
a little clique of English ladies, and had her own engagements and her
separate interests. Clarissa's friends were for the most part Frenchwomen,
whom she had known in London, or to whom she had been introduced by Lady
Laura. Mr. Granger had his own set, and spent his afternoons agreeably
enough, drinking soda water, reading _Galignani_, and talking commerce or
politics with his compeers at the most respectable cafe on the Boulevards.
Being free therefore to dispose of her afternoons, Clarissa, when Lovel's
picture was finished, went naturally to the Rue du Chevalier Bayard. Having
once taken her servants there, she had no farther scruples. "They will
think I come to see a dressmaker," she said to herself. But in this she did
not give those domestic officers credit for the sharpness of their class.
Before she had been three times to her brother's lodgings, John Thomas,
the footman, had contrived--despite his utter ignorance of the French
tongue--to discover who were the occupants of No. 7, and had ascertained
that Mr. Austin, the painter, was one of them.

"Who'd have thought of her coming to see that chap Hostin?" said John
Thomas to the coachman. "That's a rum start, ain't it?"

"Life is made up of rum starts, John Thomas," replied the coachman
sententiously. "Is there a Mrs. Hostin, do you know?"

"Yes, he's got a wife. I found that out from the porter, though the blessed
old buffer can't speak anything but his French gibberish. 'Madame?' I said,
bawling into his stupid old ear. 'Mossoo and Madame Hostin? comprenny?' and
he says, 'Ya-ase,' and then bursts out laughing, and looks as proud as a
hen that's just laid a hegg--' Ya-ase, Mossoo et Madame."

George Fairfax and Clarissa met very frequently after that ball at the
Embassy. It happened that they knew the same people; Mr. Fairfax, indeed,
knew every one worth knowing in Paris; and he seemed to have grown suddenly
fond of respectable society, going everywhere in the hope of meeting Mrs.
Granger, and rarely staying long anywhere, if he did not meet her. There
were those who observed this peculiarity in his movements, and shrugged
their shoulders significantly. It was to be expected, of course, said this
butterfly section of humanity: a beautiful young woman, married to a man
old enough to be her father, would naturally have some one interested in
her.

Sometimes Clarissa met George Fairfax in her brother's painting-room;
so often, indeed, that she scarcely cared to keep an account of these
meetings. Austin knew a good many clever agreeable Americans and Frenchmen,
and his room was a pleasant lounge for idle young men, with some interest
in art, and plenty to say upon every subject in the universe. If there
were strangers in the painting-room when Mrs. Granger came to the Rue
du Chevalier Bayard, she remained in the little salon, talking to her
sister-in-law and the two precocious nephews; but it happened generally
that George Fairfax, by some mysterious means, became aware of her
presence, and one of the folding-doors would open presently, and the tall
figure appear.

"Those fellows have fairly smoked me out, Mrs. Austin," he would say.--"Ah,
how do you do, Mrs. Granger? I hope you'll excuse any odour of Victorias
and Patagas I may bring with me. Your brother's Yankee friends smoke like
so many peripatetic furnaces."

And then he would plant himself against a corner of the mantelpiece, and
remain a fixture till Clarissa departed. It was half-an-hour's talk that
was almost a tete-a-tete. Bessie Lovel counted for so little between those
two. Half-an-hour of dangerous happiness, which made all the rest of Mrs.
Granger's life seem dull and colourless; the thought of which even came
between her and her child.

Sometimes she resolved that she would go no more to that shabby street on
the "Surrey side"; but the resolve was always broken. Either Austin had
asked her to come for some special reason, or the poor little wife had
begged some favour of her, which required personal attention; there was
always something.

Those were pleasant afternoons, when the painting-room was empty of
strangers, and Clarissa sat in a low chair by the fire, while George
Fairfax and her brother talked. Austin was never so brilliant as in
George's company; the two men suited each other, had lived in the same
world, and loved the same things. They talked of all things in heaven and
earth, touching lightly upon all, and with a careless kind of eloquence
that had an especial fascination for the listener. It seemed as if she had
scarcely lived in the dull interval between those charmed days at Hale
Castle and these hours of perilous delight; as if she had been half-stifled
by the atmosphere of common-sense which had pervaded her existence--crushed
and borne down by the weight of Daniel Granger's sober companionship.
_This_ was fairyland--a region of enchantment, fall of bright thoughts and
pleasant fancies; _that_ a dismal level drill-ground, upon which all the
world marched in solid squares, to the monotonous cry of a serjeant-major's
word of command. One may ride through a world of weariness in a
barouche-and-pair. Clarissa had not found her husband's wealth by any
means a perennial source of happiness, nor even the possession of Arden an
unfailing consolation.

It was strange how this untidy painting-room of Austin's, with its tawdry
dilapidated furniture--all of which had struck her with a sense of
shabbiness and dreariness at first--had grown to possess a charm for her.
In the winter gloaming, when the low wood fire glowed redly on the hearth,
and made a flickering light upon the walls, the room had a certain
picturesque aspect. The bulky Flemish cabinets, with their coarse florid
carving, stood boldly out from the background, with red gleams from the
fire reflected on chubby cherub heads and mediaeval monsters. The faded
curtains lost their look of poverty, and had only the sombre air of age; an
old brass chandelier of the Louis Quatorze period, which Austin had hung in
in the centre of his room, flashed and glittered in the uncertain, light;
and those two figures--one leaning against the mantelpiece, the other
prowling restlessly to and fro as he talked, carrying a mahl-stick, which
he waved ever and anon like the rod of a magician--completed the picture.
It was a glimpse of the behind-the-scenes in the great world of art, a peep
into Bohemia; and O, how much brighter a region it seemed to Clarissa than
that well-regulated world in which she dined every day at the same hour,
with four solemn men watching the banquet, and wound up always with the
game dismal quarter of an hour's sitting in state at dessert!

Those stolen hours in Austin's painting-room had too keen a fascination for
her. Again and again she told herself that she would come no more, and yet
she came. She was so secure of her own integrity, so fenced and defended by
womanly pride, that she argued with herself there could be neither sin nor
danger in these happy respites from the commonplace dreariness of her life.
And yet, so inconsistent is human nature, there were times when this woman
flung herself upon the ground beside her baby's crib, and prayed God to
pardon her iniquities.

Austin was much too careless to be conscious of his sister's danger. George
Fairfax had made an afternoon lounge of his rooms in the previous winter;
it was no new thing for him to come there three or four times a week; and
Austin did not for a moment suspect that Clarissa's occasional presence had
anything to do with these visits.